but what if…. something else happen. jusg this 1 time
frustratingly i am STILL like 80% terror for no reason
i mean, i still have important things to get done, but it seems generally like i? will do them? i seem, so far, to be doing them, i’m done w most of what i wanted to do today and have collected sources & planned my other assignments and have basically a completely open day and a half to get them done
but im still just…. feeling so so so negative and afraid and stressed
and it’s not helping that my efforts to feel less bad largely involve “not doing work” and also aren’t helping.
i realize this makes my frenzy of terror only more ridiculous in retrospect but guess whom has a TAing job for the fall
see the real embarrassing issue with my life is i am very lazy and currently able to only do things i care a lot about which means that i felt like such a fake bitch coming in to this interview all “oh i loved this class, it was exactly what i hoped a college science class would be and really shaped how i approach research and analysis, it’s all been downhill from there, all i’ve ever wanted was to be exactly like our TA who taught us how to read papers” but it’s also true, bc if it wasn’t i’d just be arranging to do SAT tutoring on the weekends or something instead
i realize this makes my frenzy of terror only more ridiculous in retrospect but guess whom has a TAing job for the fall
you can never be too paranoid miss bette davis said that
look out little girls and boys, talk about your toys talk about your cool cats all the better to eat you with all the better to beat it i said that
lmao a third of the tags on the lab fail astrology thing are “OMG THAT’S ME I’VE DONE THAT” and the other third are people yelling at me bc how dare i personally attack them like that
and the other third are those wondering how on earth one drops an agarose gel?? so i maked this figure 1:
must a sport be entertaining to watch? 