dajo42:

do you ever forget that something bad you experience regularly is like, A Symptom™, to the point at which you casually bring it up in conversation and the other person is like “uh, have you seen a doctor about that??” and it takes you a solid thirty seconds to understand why on earth you’d need to see a doctor about such a normal, everyday, run of the mill, totally debilitating and generally quite painful problem

perhaps we were wrong and it will emerge that everything had a purpose after all; that a jaw’s job was to clench, as a back muscle’s job is to ache, or a throat’s job is to feel abraded as though with a fine sandpaper,

OH im going insane rn bc im desperate for sensory stimulation. i was like “why isn’t reading working” it’s not not working i just also have been deprived of 1. being outside 2. eating anything with a taste or texture, or more than a single english muffin half every few hours 3. any kind of physical interaction/affection w another person

food/illness cw

rrghhh im so … hungry….. but like, hungry and also sick feeling. plus eating a popsicle earlier made me feel sick, which it wasn’t doing yesterday, and i made myself sick again last night by trying to have broth and pasta, so im scared to actually eat anything? toast was going well yesterday too but after popsicle was only questionably ok today im scared to retry toast