Tag: cinquespotted

watermelon, grape?

watermelon: do you have a job? if so, what is your job title?

i do! i am an undergraduate research assistant at the moment, which in my case means that i have an independent research project in a dev bio/modeling lab @ my university. this is only a temporary title, however. someday, people will call me by my stage name: they will call me Doctor Worm.

i’m also a TA this quarter for the course my faculty mentor teaches, which, despite being the class i apparently did so well in that he offered me a job w/o me interviewing or even asking, nonetheless contains a great deal of math that i think i am being entirely incompetent at explaining. nonetheless i do… receive money in exchange for doing it, somehow

grape: if you could take a vacation anywhere in the world, where would you go?

…….back to LA which from my very biased experience is basically a magical world of beaches and museums and parks punctuated by waiting 30 minutes to go on a 90-minute train ride. but yeah site of five headiest most delightful five days of my life, check.

but no in the more pipe-dream-y/actual destination sense: some Grand Tour of Europe shit, probably. i miss fuckign…. salzburg, which is. wild of me

9, 20, 41?

answered 9 but i’ll cheat and also brag about this beautiful scarf. when i bought it i thought it was going to be a gift for someone else, but as soon as it arrived i realized that 1. they wouldn’t really appreciate it even though i was correct that it would look good on them and 2. i wanted it intensely. so now it’s mine:

20. Did you develop a new obsession?

i went All In on tatterpigs, which i think is the most obvious one– started my first game ever in january of this year and now have played many, run one, and am in multiple different rpg groups of various commitment and frequency. this is on the whole a good thing, i think, even if for some reason i can’t quite figure out why i’m doing it. certainly i’ve met a lot of really great people as a result of this, and i do like playing, and i like playing WITH those people, so that’s probably enough, i just can’t shake the feeling that somehow i’m only pretending to be a(/the kind of) person who plays ttrpgs. ok no, i know why this is, it is because the specific context in which i developed my initial intense devotion to the hobby has since [personal circumstance change redacted during this period of evaluation and quality assurance] and ever since i’ve been on the comedown of just “having fun” as opposed to “being creative-collaborative manic and filled with an extremely stupid version of love”

41. Did anything happen to you that you were sure wouldn’t change you as a person but it did?

er, therapy, actually, which despite consisting of really just me narrating things i already know about myself to my therapist while she frowns and refuses to diagnose me with things, has correlated neatly enough with a significant drop in suicidal ideation that i am at least cautiously willing to connect the two, especially since i don’t think my overall life circumstances changed enough to justify the drop compared to, let’s say, last january.