listening to my favorite song, “rough gem” by islands, and also my second-favorite song, “i am yawningly, baselessly sad (and it can neither be explained nor alleviated!)” by me
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I MET A FRIEND

bold of you to assume that i’m human, uncancelled-out-of-laziness mailing list email
finally onboarding to joanna newsom, embarrassingly via the owen pallet cover of peach plum pear

INTRODUCING
DOG 2.0.0.0.1
FASTER, SLEEKER, SMOOTHER
Find Dog 2.0.0.0.1 at all major retailers*
*Be careful
Woops! Who are you?
when are they going to let us use emojis in email addresses?
john.smith🤓gmail.com
If I’m reading RFC 6531 correctly, international email addresses can contain any non-reserved characters in the Local-Part, so while the above is not allowed because an address must contain an @, the following are all technically permitted:
- john.🤓@example.org
- 🤖@example.org
- ⬆⬆⬇⬇⬅➡⬅➡ba▶@example.org
- üm̈l̈äüẗs̈_̈f̈ör̈_̈ëv̈ër̈ÿb̈öd̈ÿ@example.org
- üm̈l̈äüẗs̈_̈f̈ör̈_̈ëv̈ër̈ÿb̈öd̈ÿ@example.org (considered better practice than the previous one)
- ▁▂▃▄▅▆▇▉@example.org
- ╰┴┲╋┱┴╯@example.org
- ƃɹo˙ǝldɯɐxǝ@example.org
- H̢̡̜͎̗̜̎̈́́Ȅ͉̥͔̓̋̾̈̌͒͝͠_͔̮͉͙̉̉͐̈ͧͪĆ̸͖̑̓ͩ̀͛͘O͊ͩ̑ͬ͆́̀҉͖̠M̨͔̞̼̙̜̘̦̲ͫͫ̾̄Ḙ̶̱͙͉ͩ̽͗̃̂̅ͬS̷̬̯͓̩̠̥̒̃ͫ͋̓͐ͬ̚@example.org
anyway bragging. so the volunteer thing i do, i’ve maybe mentioned before, is for high school & college students, selected on various axes including being underrepresented in science, to do a summer cancer research project in a lab on my campus; and my role is to act as a peer mentor, meaning for ~¼th of the students i’m their most direct contact on the program side/a general reference person for issues w their research, or anything even vaguely associated such as college apps etc, incl after the program ends if they want to stay in contact/most specifically there to help them learn to present, publicly, about science. i also was in this program the summer before i started college, and my peer mentor was useless– i saw him once, got like two emails, received functionally no support. (he is no longer a volunteer). since then i’ve been a mentor every year so this will be my third.
and anyway, i was at the start-of-program meeting, and we were discussing the role/expectations for volunteers for the new people, and the longest-running volunteer, who started the year before i was even a student in the program, said that last summer he had shifted from emailing his group of students once every week or two to check in as he’d been doing in years previous, to instead having lunch with them weekly. and that they had had dramatically increased engagement/attendance/had been more likely to come to him with their issues in the program, and done it sooner, than when he’d just been contacting them by email.
and the thing is that, as he actually mentioned in passing, i’m the one who started doing that– bc of the time commitment involved, weekly meetings were never pitched to us as an expectation of the role or even really suggested as a way of doing it; i introduced that, in my first year mentoring, because i remembered how hard a time i had not being engaged/comfortable bringing up my problems in my lab in the program, and wanted to be way more hands-on and more of a resource for my students than the suggested level of contact seemed to involve. so: i, an at the time 19-y/o w no formal teaching or mentoring experience, tried a thing, it worked well, and the highly-experienced late-stage grad student picked it up from me the next year, and now has decided to continue with it and recommend it to the organizers & other volunteers as the best way to do things.
i feel so good about that! i feel so good about that. i am not only above-and-beyond engaged/committed to this thing i care about, but i figured out a better way to make it work, and now other people in the program are also doing it so that it can succeed more and be more helpful overall. what an uncomplicatedly good thing!
feeling weirdly– idk tired of myself? desiring-to-disavow myself. not strictly mad at myself, that was earlier, just like…. wishing to escape the self somehow. i’d like to move out. this is partly weird bc bulk of today was spent in 1. lecture for class i’m good at 2. preprogram meeting for my summer volunteering gig, which i love most of all the things i do and the organizers of which think i am a perfect genius. actually more on that later i have bragging to do 3. with @biosweg and wisely tumblrless friend drinking the tea of moral corruption and chatting/watching in terror as they planned mcat study. none of which should really come with an especially strong version of my sometime self-image as a golem, or a robot, or some polyhedra, or something. but that is absolutely where i am
weirdly this came with and feels linked to having a lot of especially medium-uselessness high-compassion emotions– eg worrying about a dramatic appearance change in one of the volunteer organizers that could indicate she’s sick, even though i am unable to do anything about it even if our relationship was not high-mutual-affection but extremely-low-intimacy professionalism and she were not you know an administrator nearly 2x my age; though of course the inappropriateness of me even considering asking her if she’s ok is probably part of the lasting power/compassion/uselessness of the whole experience
or, idk, watching [friends] plan out weeks of literal nonstop test prep misery and being able to come up with only “… if u let me know a few days out when your extra-miserable days are i’d love to make you dinner so you don’t have to work for 7 hours and then study for 5 hours and then cook? or spend a ton of money getting downtown and back for an 8 hour practice test and then cook or have to buy food?” which is like. very high uselessness even if it is also probably the literal most materially helpful thing i can come up with to do, at least rn
third-weirdest mood of the day: feeling really touched that several people have come in and edited the wikipedia article that i completely rewrote two days ago, and that their edits were at once useful/meaningful but also all appear to be premised on agreeing that my changes were overall useful and necessary. idk. i like being responsible for slightly more collective accuracy of knowledge about weird subsets of epigenetics or w/e





