hmmm maybe the real reason i don’t like sandwiches is because when u eat a sandwich and then your body is like You Ate Something We Hated you don’t even get to pretend to yourself that you’ve figured out what the thing is that makes you sick (you didn’t) and that you’ll avoid it from now on (you won’t). it’s a sandwich there’s like seven things in there. it could be anything

guess what today is everyone! it is my SECOND 4-hour-minimum skype meeting that starts (“starts”) at 7PM

like– meetings go long sometimes, ok. meetings have to happen at weird times and be teleconferences, sure, that’s what it means to do work that involves international collaborators

but somehow it all just feels so avoidable. we’re having this meeting so that we can sit through each fellowship participant’s 10-minute research proposal presentation and then ask them questions about it, and it just– it really feels like there’s a better way. i don’t know what precisely it would’ve been, but there definitely is one

(that’s a lie, i do know what it would’ve been. just send everyone a packet of the 1-pg proposal writeups we all also had to prepare, and let us have these conversations in our two hours of dedicated meeting time in like two weeks when they’re all HERE, it’s not like our input actually matters for this bc all of their actual project content will be decided with their PIs anyway so it really doesn’t need to be happening before we’re all, yk, in the same time zone)

crazy idea: since i don’t actually have to finish all of this assignment now, but i do have to get more of it done tonight than what i have rn, what if, when i was stuck on one part of it…. i started doing a different part of it that i feel more confidently able to do

instead of just. sadly not making eye contact with the last 300 words of part 1 like i am somehow bound to write it all in exact chronological order