my roommates both helped me while i was recovering from surprise iud, incl. making/bringing me food so i didn’t have to stand up a lot, carrying laundry up & down stairs, and walking with me to a slightly far meeting i had to go to– nothing i couldn’t have done on my own even at my most unwell, but sometimes it’s just really nice to have people help you do stuff and to get to lie down and wait for the cramps to go away (which they mostly have by now)

and both of them were so kind & thoughtful & solicitous about it, & about checking in with me several times as i recover, and this was all a very minor procedure that i underwent on purpose but it’s still so nice to be taken care of, you know?

….i just realized what piece of media i’m currently the most nostalgic for as i am moderately convalescing

it’s the beach bowl level from super mario galaxy. that’s all i want to experience rn

aeide-thea replied to your post “hooray iud”

…weirdly i’m realizing i had no active picture of yr pronouns??? but also have def been gender-neutraling u in my head which like, is bad bc an Assumption, but also maybe validating or whatever ime

1. yes validating 2. reasonable assumption since i have made various allusive gendergestures on my blog from which “they/them” is i think the (accurate) picture that one would form

but yes. i tentatively poked at alternative pronoun sets for a bit and accept she/her with ill-fitted equanimity and he/him with bafflement or perhaps charm as well as a certain type of validation, but ultimately they/them has felt quite comfortable pretty much continuously. which is nice. i love to decide on a thing and then be able to comfortably and immediately build a nest out of it.

…….i haven’t taken any painkillers

i genuinely am not having a conscious experience of being in significant pain but i also just noticed that i am, um, straight up whimpering out loud

so maybe i am in a lot of pain but it’s like…. a secret

hooray iud

a take, since i finally watched [most of] it this weekend: thor ragnarok was not good?

the aesthetics were fun, it had all of the gifbait jokes i was promised, but that was a movie that absolutely hated me for wanting to watch it. that movie thought i was deeply stupid for wanting to have any kind of sustained engagement with it or the franchise in general, or to have any emotional stake in anything that occurred. i think it also thought i was an idiot for having been invested in the planet hulk comics, which were the original source of the sakaar/hulk as a gladiator leading a revolution story line, and which i read in middle school and uh… tbh liked and thought were good, since it actually got treated in a serious thoughtful way and dealt with like the question of the hulk as a person in his own right which i found kind of fascinating? i don’t know, i haven’t read them in years, maybe they were bad after all.

but like, the overwhelming feeling i had about that movie is that taika waititi wants everyone who has a sincere investment in comics or comic book movies to go fuck themselves. i recognize that most of the marvel movies are very bad, and that the trappings of basically all comics are entirely ridiculous, but i would have needed very little prompting to be able to buy in to some part of the stakes or conflict, and the movie not only refused to give me that, but mocked me for wanting it in the first place. i stopped watching 30 minutes before the end because i just felt so dumb for having wanted to see it.