post–grad:

The Difficulty of the Undertaking 

Winter, image of age, who like a great belly
Eats up the whole year’s substance and heartlessly
Swallows the fruit of our unstinted labor,
Had gone into hiding deep below the earth.
For Spring had arrived and driven him under. Spring
Source of the world’s life and glory of the year,
Had returned, and was wiping away the ugly traces
Of greedy winter and restoring to ailing fields
Their former loveliness.

A purer air was now beginning to herald
Fine weather. Plants stirred in the zephyr’s path
Thrusting out from their roots the slender tips
Which had long lain hidden in the earth’s blind womb,
Shunning the frost they hate. Spring smiled
In the leaves of the woodland, the lush grass on the slopes
And the bright sward of the cheerful meadows. 

But this little patch which lies facing east
In the small open courtyard before my door
Was full—of nettles! All over
My small piece of land they grew, their barbs
Tipped with a smear of tingling poison. 

What should I do? So thick were the ranks
That grew from the tangle of roots below,
They were like the green hurdles a stableman skillfully
Weaves of pliant osiers when the horses’ hooves
Rot in the standing puddles and go soft as fungus.

So I put it off no longer. I set to with my mattock
And dug up the sluggish ground. From their embraces
I tore those nettles though they grew again and again.
I destroyed the tunnels of the moles that haunt dark places,
And back to the realms of light I summoned the worms. 

Then my small patch was warmed by winds from the south
And the sun’s heat. That it should not be washed away,
We faced it with planks and raised it in oblong beds
A little above the level ground. With a rake
I broke the soil up bit by bit, and then
Worked in from on top the leaven of rich manure.

Some plants we grow from seed, some from old stocks
We try to bring back to the youth they knew before.

(from Strabo’s Hortulus, c. 842. trans. R. Payne)

All Objects Reveal Something About the Body

Catie Rosemurgy

Crisp is to the apple what
flexed is to the body.

Poor apple.

Being bitten is to the crisp apple
what walking is to the ripe body, but it’s more complicated than that:

the apple of the face has been given
to the running juice of the body

and the body, which is often gracious,
makes it shine.

Lucky apple.

Having a core is to the apple
what having a core is to the body, city, method, circumstance, endeavor.

Having a core is flower-shaped and hurts
in the way that having a shape hurts, which is to say

it hurts ironically, because to have limits
is not just to make a declaration upon a mountainside,

it is also to be the mountainside. Having a flowering core
also hurts in the way that being flower-like always hurts,

which is to say sexually, as if the whole self
has exceeded the skin, which it hasn’t, which means

we always seem to be opening but never ever do.
Both these types of suffering color the air

when we pause to have them. The affected atoms
are hard to see amongst the billions

of sofa atoms, newsprint atoms
but, like the illnesses in the crystalline sea, they are there.

Red apple sliced, quartered, salted. Green apple,

alone in the basket.
Anything left on the shelf becomes weak,

suggestible, vulnerable to other shapes, hungry to be refilled
by something other than itself,

a poison apple.
The joining we do with others needs containing.

Apple pie.
Imagine the mess. Imagine a finger touching the sack of the heart.

Imagine being stopped, controlled that powerfully.
Imagine nothing like that being possible. Nothing ever stopping you

at the root of the breath. Huge apple.
The world in reference to you. How you move. Time a backdrop.

Or close the other eye: you in reference to the world.
How it varies and happens simultaneously.

Good morning.
Little apple.

i woke up a little disoriented this morning and kicked my feet a bit and thought, i think yesterday something good happened to my body. i felt calm and centered and warm and right, and sore but not very sore, and for once neither nauseated nor starved nor hideously migrainey. i just lay around and basked a while. it was excellent

i realize that this post sounds like i’m a nun who just had a full st. theresa sex-with-god experience but actually i just went to a zumba class for the first time in months