i am STILL having cramps and occasionally they are of such acute intensity that it takes all my force of will to avoid involuntarily crumpling to the ground!

hate that

aaa ( <-that’s me screaming about my chest & abdominal pain) (and also a lysine! multifunctional.)

medical stuff, menstruation cw

i have spent a week trying to chase down any of my 3 doctors to give me the kind of birth control pill that i can actually ingest, so i can hopefully stop having continuous bleeding and abdominal cramps, as i have for the past two months

the conclusion so far is “your insurance won’t cover the brand. here, after several days, is a prescription for the generic. your insurance won’t cover that either, and it costs $637/month. also, we lied to you when we said your insurance covered the original iud insertion that has caused these other problems, so that will be an additional thousand dollars. there is no way for you to actually speak directly to anyone with the power to prescribe you something, so any new step in any direction on this problem will take an entire day to resolve and require you to contact several people and miss at least an hour of work per day.”

i am literally not worth any of this money, my problems are not several thousand dollars of serious, it would be most appropriate for me to decide to just keep functioning as-is because acting like i have solvable problems is 1. an inaccurate picture that will make me more unhappy than i would be if i just assimilated “bleeds, hurts” into my self-image 2. just the kind of thing that got me into this mess in the first place

can’tbeieve im going t o take on purpose, estrogen

my long term goal is to surgically remove parts of the inside of my mouth as an anxiety management technique

sometimes you come home and it’s too warm in your apartment to be wearing a flannel shirt. a quitter would change into a different shirt; i, of course, being pure of mind and heart, merely have it unbuttoned to the navel

weequaypirates:

which mac foundation is the most drinkable, in terms of taste/consistency/mouthfeel

nostalgebraist:

After we die, we all of us are consumed by worms. He was consumed by worms before he died.

literally my doctor handed me an article entitled “the urgent need to reduce sodium consumption” and was like “i want u to ignore everything in this article except the list of the highest-sodium foods on page 2. eat them.”

finally got my rite-of-passage high-sodium food prescription

time 2 raise my blood pressure 🍜🍿💉