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yes, that’s what i’m going with here, we can all cope. i am probably not able to meet you at swordpoint here, or at least not blow for blow, but i can make the effort:

i’m pretty sure that at some point you declared your desire to be inscrutable and i just took that VERY seriously and as we know Belief Becomes Fact, either that or you are just purposefully (and successfully!) totally opaque and my intentions have no part of it. regardless i have absolutely no guiding model of either you or your emotions, and presumably never will, but will take “curious” over “disgusted” with something best approximated as glee, given my options (or at least my own dubious and pessimistic guesses at my options! like i said: no model whatsoever). if i’m a book character you’re one of the more fascinating (and frankly, charming) black boxes ever created; i won’t pretend to know exactly what the candle is but i’ll assert that it’s possible that we’re actually both just holding flashlights.

it is very sad that tumblr would not permit you to send me a good bird photo; someday, i believe, we will achieve this level of rapport. i will comfort myself with the thought of previous good bird photos that we have exchanged in the past. there have been several.

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you take great selfies (& have very nice hair) and i really like your sense of humor– you don’t post/reblog as much as many of the people i follow but all of your posts are excellent. we don’t really talk as such but i’m very glad that i follow you and get to see/read about your life. and, like i said last time, i very much admire your musical career as someone who has never so much as gestured toward such a capacity

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you are great and extremely funny and the only true lesbian style icon t b h. possessor of correct opinions, mean in a smart way, also one time you drew a picture of me and it was amazing??

i love the stable ecosystem that is you and i passing horse posts to each other, you from your position of being a funny person who actually knows about horses, me from my highly developed sense of deliberately ignorant horse fear.

i hope we can meet up again sometime!

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as it happens i AM so moved!

frankly i cherish your presence in my online life; you are excellent and worth cherishing. and you take excellent selfies.

as i’ve said before, i admire your tendency toward emotional openness and your willingness to use intense and poetic language for intense and beautiful feelings. not least because it inspires in me some degree of the same, for instance see above. you are another of my gender inspirations/companions on the journey/etc. always glad to get your snaps.

you’re someone who i really just want things to work out for, you know? you’re good and sparkling and deserve much happiness.

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congrats! you’re a middle-of-the-road zac efron comedy vehicle. no. sorry. that was extraordinarily cruel.

(ok you just messaged me to switch to “1571″ but i’m not deleting this joke.)

you’re another person who i think i must have followed for years upon years, through various urls and tumblr breaks and un-breaks. i love that you started out in some way as part of my delighted spectator-engagement with selected corners of classics/-adjacent tumblr and that i’ve gotten to like, watch your life and career and everything evolve into the extremely cool thing that you do now. i just get really genuinely excited about your life updates!

ah fuck there’s two 17s. well. that was for one of you, presumably it’s obvious which? i think one of you has like, never posted a selfie, so that should help. idk. fight it out amongst yourselves.

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um? of course you count? you seem too internet popular for me, not sure what you are doing here tbh. i really like your writing and i love your strong and sincere commitment to Genre. like, for real, you are so clearly a connoisseur of your literary interests and their conventions and how to disassemble and reassemble them, and it is cool as hell. though i also like how often you use that knowledge to just make six-line jokes about text message-based portal fantasies. in a similar vein i really like your critiques of ~~genre~~ novels and that you don’t ever seem to fall in to the trap of making cheap critiques of what something is trying to be over critiques of whether it succeeds at its attempt. also you have very very good lipstick and some really extraordinary dresses.

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you!! i like you so much, my companion in Lesbian Genderweird and also delight in the truly terrible gross aspects of life/embodiment/internet jokes. your tumblr icon is horrible and i hate to look upon it.

also hey i’m gonna be Brave for a sec– do you want to like, hang out sometime? i honestly feel ridiculous that we haven’t crossed paths yet bc i am so genuinely fond of you and the things you bring into my internet life! i know that right now you are a plague ball so obviously that would have to wait, but like…. i mean, to be clear, no worries if you’re not up for it! but! you’re great and cool.

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it was GREAT to meet you; i really like your hair color; you are very charming in person, excellent next step after like …. 4 or 5 years of mutualship, well done all. i’m glad to have been able to follow you thru your various blog changes and to be able to get updates on your shoe/fashion innovations as well as your important dog. thank you also for the DEEPLY harrowing story about statisticians, i have been thinking about that for days and may never know peace.

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you too, huh. traitors all.

i really admire your writing and your capacity for introspection and the way you write about yourself and your life. you have a strongly curated aesthetic, which i admire. i also appreciate your capacity to find or make humor out of very dark things– it’s relatable and makes me feel distinctly less alone in my similar instincts. i am very glad of your presence on my dash!