Tag: ⍰

😇💔🎉🐭😑

😇: Every single interaction we’ve had so far has been positive.

💔: You’ve disappointed me before. 

yeah don’t worry i’ll be meaner to you going forward. i know you need me to make fun of you more or else your hydoxylases can’t make enough collagen and your gums start bleeding.

🎉: I get really happy when I see positive personal posts from you, even when I don’t fully understand the context! you live in my room what more context could you possibly need

🐭: Please be kinder to yourself. i’ll have u know i ate like four entire meals today

😑: -__-

fuck dude.

it sure is

👍🏻

@goblintoast replied to your post “����”

unopenablebox:

👍: I like you. Just, in general. I think you’re a genuinely good person. :O

idk if this is someone’s sideblog or u just wandered in to be nice to me, but either way i appreciate it!

Nope, I’m the OP of the ask meme you reblogged! I read what you wrote in the tags and thought you sounded like a sweet person!

OH ok got it. thank you! that’s very kind. i like saying nice things to people, as well as posts that encourage so doing, so thank you for, uh, facilitating niceness! 

😶(b/c you are controlled and personal on your blog and i am a Disaster); 🌊; 👍

😶: I’m honored that you’re even following me tbH. omfg no u. like– ur very funny and interesting all the time and i like following you a LOT and idk what there even is on my blog besides like, other people’s gay shitposts, and paragraphs of abstruse weirdness.

🌊: You have a lot of personality. haha thanks i grew it myself

👍: I like you. Just, in general. I think you’re a genuinely good person.

💙💙

🐼💥🐶(pellam/keet/the platonic ideal of me)

🐼 if you could meet anyone, who would it be and why?

tbh @idionkisson or @aeide-thea? which is like, a lot, i realize– sorry– but for both of u i really appreciate your internet presences and how we’ve interacted and i think you would be really delightful to meet in person!

i don’t really want to meet celebrities, and while i could come up with historical figures who someone should ask various important questions of, on a personal level i mostly just like having friends.

and, of course, anon, my dear roommate, i wish we were friends in real life too.

💥 what are some unpopular opinions that you have?

i tried to answer this and became transfixed for several minutes by my cat, who was washing his face. anyway. part of my whole thing is that i like my opinions to be orthogonal to popularity whenever possible, but with the consequence that i’m not sure what the popular opinions actually are, or even who is supposed to be having these opinions that are popular, because i exist in such a weird opinion space that i don’t think i encounter opinions that correspond to anything that’s popular in other spheres. literally i’ve been here for like ten minutes trying to figure out what people like and whether i disagree about it, but without getting into politics, which i hate and refuse to discuss here.

ok, uh, hamilton was never very good, tallahassee has good songs but isn’t great as an album, if something makes you sort of sick and you keep eating it that’s actually fine probably and anyway is your right as the owner of your own cells. generating a stem/humanities dichotomy and then ranking one over the other is stupid, but you can see where stem people get it from, whereas surely the whole point of the kind of thought cultivated by being a humanities or art ~person is you know better than to pull that shit. just kidding, neither of them makes you good at critical thought. people become interesting and smart through exposure to michigan winters or possibly by being lesbians, although neither of those, in itself, is enough.

🐶 send me 3 fictional people and I’ll choose my favourite!

to be clear, for the readers: pellam is my roommate’s dnd eladrin wizard, keet is my roommate’s dungeon world orca mermaid, @literalliterature is……………. best not to get into it.

anyway my ranking is 1. pellam 2. keet 3. platonic ideal of you. you in yourself are my favorite of the three, obviously, but what i like is the destructive interference caused by your interactions with the imperfect and fallen phenomena of the world. a you distilled, in isolation, does nothing for me.

i like pellam more than keet because i think emotional trauma and eye injuries are sexier than amnesia.

🌺 🍪 😊

🌺 which languages do you know? which do you want to learn?

i’m not a particularly strong language learner– english, obviously, and i had pretty decent french for a few years although that’s lapsed a lot since i stopped using it in college. if i were going to spend a bunch of time on language anytime soon i think it would be mostly focused on getting french back. spanish or hebrew or yiddish would be useful for me to know/potentially interesting; i sometimes come across things in german or russian that i wish i could read, but probably not enough to even consider actually studying them. there’s also a lot of chinese literature that’s interesting to me, but i can’t imagine having a future that involves enough free time that i’m able to learn enough chinese to read anything in it, tbh.

🍪 what did you want to be as a kid, and what do you want to be now?

i think my progression of dream jobs was gymnast > ballet dancer > artist > particle physicist > biologist > writer/science writer > biologist again, where everything before the first “biologist” happened between ages 3 and 6. i still want to be a biologist/do research, enough that i am, hideously, planning to apply to phd programs, but i think my eventual goal is to arrive at mostly doing science writing or communication or teaching rather than bench work.

😊 what do you like to do as hobbies?

i write a lot, mostly poetry plus my four prose projects that will never ever get finished. i also make collages/papercraft/paint and draw slightly, although poorly and with functionally no training. i’m currently making an elaborate thank you card, which i’m enjoying mostly because it involves a lot of cutting out petals and it will be forgivable if the end product is not terribly high-concept or exciting. when i can, which is rarely, i like hiking and paddleboarding. mostly i read a lot, but not, you know, novels or anything. mostly i read articles about math concepts i don’t and won’t understand, or 500-page forum threads about the transformers films, or the wikipedia entry “list of soups”.

💚🐝🎀? (i had trouble deciding what was too/intrusive/shitty to ask about, so like, don’t answer any you don’t feel like answering!)

💚 who are you jealous of and why? 

uh ok right now i am very envious of one specific friend because he is at [highly positive location] with [highly positive people] and i no longer am, and this is no fault of his or mine or anyone’s but still: rude.

i don’t know if i’m like, jealous of anybody, in the sense of feeling threatened by the possibility of having something of mine or a relationship taken away by someone else? i don’t have anything and anyone who can take anything from me deserves it more.

🐝 what’s your worst trait? how are you planning to improve it?

probably my most inconvenient trait is being avoidant about things that make me anxious, which just leads to really annoying issues because i’ve ignored a work thing or some paperwork or whatever and now its urgent and unpleasant instead of just unpleasant. i almost never blow deadlines, at least, which is why im not working harder on it, but it is very blatantly why i’m just not that good at my job, because once i actually show up to it i’m like, perfectly adequate, but i don’t… always show up. or metaphorically show up to the matlab scripts on my laptop, or whatever. i am mostly planning to improve that by overcoming my shame about it enough to talk about it so i am held more externally accountable, resulting in more deadlines and accordingly more productivity.

uhhhhh “worst” feels deeper than that though. the trait i hate the most about myself is something along the lines of “possessed of misdirected desire”, but that’s really just any desire that is not explicitly allowed and reciprocated/endorsed and even some of them that are, and at that point i think me hating that about myself is itself the pathology, not like, my experience of the human emotion of wanting. i plan to overcome that by……. dying someday? i also sometimes feel like my worst trait is the inverse of that, in that i am not totally willing to be completely physically, emotionally, and mentally available to everyone who might want me to be on the basis of their affection for me. that is probably not also an actually bad trait, although again, thinking it is…. might be.

uh. actually my worst trait is my sweeping judgmental dismissals of things, made almost entirely for entertainment value or aesthetic effect, which then lead people who like them to actually feel bad or judged. that’s just shitty! no one benefits, it just sucks, i at the least want to work harder at making obvious the unseriousness/potential malleability of a vast majority of my opinions so that people will be more able to discount me if they like.

🎀 what’s your fashion sense like?

uh, in flux due to gender, primarily. mostly i like looking sleek and put-together, androgynous, elegant, and mean. although i’ve also been aiming frequently for a sort of cozy casual butch thing recently. i like boots, jeans, leather jackets, black, dark grey, red, graphic tees with at most two colors and ideally an abstract joke about either furniture design or death, and wearing a plaid men’s shirt over another shirt while looking very subtly rumpled. the other thing i like is sheer, gauzy tops/robes with ridiculous floral patterns that i can wear over a thing that is ambiguously either a sports bra or a binder. you know, very #nondenominational gay.