luckystrabismus:

bc that one post about attachment to womanhood is still hurting people’s feelings, let’s keep talking about it.

radical feminist notions of gender socialization correctly frame it as a traumatizing process. a contradiction arises, in that case, when they assign positive moral traits to female socialization (and femininity by extension) because, much like society in general, they believe that an ideally traumatized woman is able to access moral high grounds that other people cannot. “i was socialized female” becomes an admission of guaranteed prosociality, a set of traits that are only ever harmful because they are at risk of exploitation via external forces.

this is why many radical feminists view trans men as safer & more politically enlightened than trans women – because of their proximity (imagined or otherwise) to femaleness, to daintiness, to softness and benevolence. “male socialization” is synonymous with antisociality, and becomes lobbied at trans women as a whole when individual trans women do things that radical feminists deem “unwomanly,” from having controversial political opinions to committing violent crime. the gender socialization model becomes a way to moralize sex assignment by prescriptively linking particular experiences of trauma to particular personality outcomes. it is no longer a theoretical framework meant to honestly and meticulously analyze how children become gendered subjects. it is now used to reproduce the very gender roles that proponents of the framework claim to be against.

i also. uh. i wouldn’t mind a little testosterone mediated puberty as a chaser to the estrogen kind, but unfortunately the key point there is “a little” and i don’t have much faith in the medical ability to titrate that

weirdly i’ve like–– mentally being doing a lot of Well I Guess I’m Just A Girl After All, Going To Have To Live With It I Guess, Look How I’m Wearing This Boatneck Sweater, and also like………. i visually parse myself as “pretty/scornful boy” and also i am like definitely uh–– 

idk. at a certain point it’s not as important to me to perpetually query my internal experiences for validity as it is to try to stake out an oppositional life and try to unmake/fray the genderedness of my interpersonal experience and that’s trans enough frankly