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space-lesbo:

leander-ligo:

understandager:

when u only know one lyric in a song so it plays in ur head like this

This is just what depression feels like

this is legit how it plays in my head

astrolocherry:

devil on my shoulder: aries
refusing to listen to wise advice by interpreting guidance or suggestion as relegating and underestimating them

devil on my shoulder: taurus
“they don’t care the same way that you do”

devil on my shoulder: gemini
being deceitful or lying for no valid reason but to experiment with the different reactions they provoke out from different people

devil on my shoulder: cancer
incessantly and secretly questioning people’s intentions and using past experiences to justify their suspicions 

devil on my shoulder: leo
their feelings of jealousy or envy toward certain people are justified and not based on a fleeting image and false assumptions

devil on my shoulder: virgo
waiting for something to go wrong so they can be vindicated and their observation proven right

devil on my shoulder: libra
withholding vital or sensitive information at crucial time because they assume they know best, the person is ‘not ready’, or it will cause uncomfortable tension or conflict 

devil on my shoulder: scorpio
“people are inherently bad, friends are just as easily enemies, and if you don’t do it first it will happen to you regardless”

devil on my shoulder: sagittarius
“you’re not really having fun until you’ve consumed everything and you can’t feel anymore”

devil on my shoulder: capricorn
“if you turn your back for a moment they won’t hesitate to take everything and find your replacement”

devil on my shoulder: aquarius
gives a very limited amount of time for somebody to state their opinion and capture their attention before they refuse to hear a thing

devil on my shoulder: pisces 
what they find to alleviate and soothe their emotional anguish is a false redeemer who waits with more destruction behind that door, they face a devil disguised as an angel 

C

pustluk:

i feel like there are a lot of half-truths and straight up lies we have to stop telling kids about biomedical transition, some of which are mythology derived more from the medical and mental health institutions than trans people themselves but all of which are circulated within gay and trans communities, among them:

– that they’ll be the person they were before

– that physicians, psychiatrists, and therapists know better than they do, and that trauma and desire to transition have to be completely separate for transition to be a valid option

– that transition has any kind of endpoint

– that it’s guaranteed to change their mental health for the better in an uncomplicated way

– that it will cure dysphoria, that their dysphoria is guaranteed to improve in every way or even stay the same, and that persistence or even worsening dysphoria always means biomedical transition was the wrong choice

– that hormone replacement and gender-confirming surgeries are supposed to be uncomplicated emotional experiences

– that they aren’t allowed to have second thoughts and that second thoughts always mean biomedical transition was the wrong choice (i’m over two years in, i’ve had some surgery, and i still have moments where i think ‘what the hell am i doing’ even though i know it’s saved my life)

– that any kind of transition, public or internal, biomedical or otherwise, is a linear process with a specific blueprint they have to follow, and

– that biomedical transition has to be the highlight of their lives or otherwise a life-or-death decision, and that their decisions about what to do with their bodies have moral consequences.

there are definitely a lot of others, but i feel like hearing some of this much earlier in my life would have spared me a lot of internal conflict, agony, and lost time